okeeey?!

okeeey?! soo like today has been ehh sumwhat ok.. last night was horrible..but now its fine cause im with brittani!!!=]
and ya ummm im hungry!! and thirsty!!! and brittani is kewl... ummmmmmmm.... idk im lsitening to rap.. lol
lets see.. ummm oh ya ok soo i like ran away last night it was fun kt was the only one who knew i did.. i called her and told her i was gunna and shes like no so i didnt actually "run away" i just went on a really long bike ride it was fun cuz i had music on my psp and it wasnt coldd outside it was perfect! and yaa umm i wish my mom wouldnt flip out on me for asking her to be nice.. gosh.. sometimes i just wanna like die! and yaa soo ... um idk.. so i dont know what to write about now soo im outty... *click*

over and out

ook.. so monday it is... monday and the thoughts that i have had soo far since my last blog is wat this blog will be about...
ok soo to start.. saturday.. i went on a scavenger hunt with my old youth group.. it was crazyyy!! their were girls there who were like in love with me. and ya like i guess if my mind was straight i could have liked them too.. but my mind wasn't on the scavenger hunt the whole time i was there.. actually i was thinking about sumthing.. actually its a sumone.. i was thinking about kt and like i cant stop thinking about her... it sux... cuz i know she doesnt like me anymore but i just cant stop thinking about her... and incase u havent noticed.. i've written about her in every blog on here... and like idk i just miss being with her and holding her hand.... ugh..... i dont wanna think about it.. it just depresses me that i couldn't have been a better b/f and the worst part is is that i lied to her and that pissed her off and it pissed me off too.. i mean why would i lie to someone well actually the only girl who i have ever loved.. all together it was like 4 weeks maybe that we were together and i was like madly in love with her and grr i cant get her outta my head.. how am i supposed to move on and start new relationships when i cant stop thinking about her.. .... .. .. . .. .. . *sigh* this is gunna be realllly hard .. getting over her and all.. i know we arent gunna get back together.. but hey dreams don't hurt anybody!! unless u hit the ground... ok so speaking of dreams last night i had a dream.. and i was standing in like one of those rooms in the police station where like they have the suspects standing in a room with the one way mirror and i was standing on one side and all my ex g/f were on the other side and i was told to pick the one that made me the most happiest.. soo i picked kt... then i had to pick the one that made me the most sad.. kt.. then i had to pick the one that if i was to sed only once again in my life but i had the whole day with them.. and i picked kt... its likee idk its wierd why would i pick kt for that one.. i would hate to never see kt again... but i guess like if i had one day with her b4 i never saw her again i'd tell her everything and all my thoughts about us.. and ya.. and i'd be content with everything because she knew my true feelings... but the truth is.. I Love Katie Marie Frost! and theres nothing that will make me not love her.. and it may sound weird and stalkerish but its true i do love her i love her as a best friend and as a well idk i love her... and ya.. lol kt if u end up reading this please dont think im weird im not really well actually i am but thats beside the point.. but ya ik u dont like me anymore.. well atleast not the way i like you.. but i miss you dearly and i've never felt this way for anyone else... you're soo beautiful and i love your smile and your face and your clothes and your eyes and even your voice... just hearing your voice makes me so happy.. why do u think i want to talk to you all the time.. and why else would i call u at 4 o' clock in the morning and why would i walk you to your classroom ... lol sorry i sound really obsessed.. well i guess i am well not really its just like i cant let her go. i miss you dearly katie!!!!! and i hope atleast we will be friends forever!!! and i hope that nothing i do no matter how stupid and how mad it makes you.. i hope we will never fall apart.... cuz we made a promise to be friends forever.. and i pray that that is true!!!! I Love you Katie!!!!!!!!!!!!
well i guess thats it for today.. I'm over and out *click*

freaky friday

ok so today hasnt been freaky at all.. today has been a very good day..!!!!!! thats really good.. no one seems to be in a bad mood... kt is actually very happy today.. but ithink i know why tho... lol =P cant talk about it or she'll kill me lol.. but yaa.... kt's mom is being retarded and wont let her come to my hosue anymore without a parent their.. its stupid cuz shes been to my hopuse without parentals there b4 and its not like we're gunna f*** or sumthing but ya if shes not allowed over at all anymore im gunna be soo pissed cuz kt is muh bestest fraand!!! yupp... lol sooo i had sum wierd chick ask me to the dance and i was like nope sorry im going alone... i really am goiong alone but shes gross lol... yujp so im goingto see the devil wears prada chiodos scary kids scaring kids and emery in boston on november 27th its gunna be amazing!!!!!! im soo happy. i wanted to get kt to go but her mom wont let her go with me if george is bringing me cuz hes only like 20 soo ya.. but i might bring cory bowlby.. oh ya i had cory bret landry and frickin eric burns over to my house yesterday for band practice and food lol ya they ate a lot of my food.. lol and we have sum of our song "depths" down.. actually only the first part but ya its aworking progress.. anyways.. if we can get thnat song down pat we could play it for the christmas assembly at school and that would be amazing!!!!!!!!! but ya i think im done for now cuz i cant think of anything else to write about.. ok im outty ttyl *click*

after thoughts

okey dokey... well i found out wat was up with kt and i was pissed cuz sum1 told her sumthing that wasnt true... and ya.. ok sooo me and kt are good now... i hung out with her Cory and Bret yesterday that was fun...lol i went to like pick her up over my shoulder and i ripped my pants it was hilarious... lol =P..... ok soo.. today at lunch was fun... Greg ook one of my apple things and i screamed "HEY I DIDNT F***ING SAY YOU COULD HAVE THAT" and it was soo loud lol and then i walked kt to her classroom after lunch and i was like im gunna say hey to ur teacher and shes like no he thinks we are dating and i like yelled
"Fine kt... WE'RE OVER" and i walked away it was soo funny cuz ppl thought i broke up with her.. yupp..... *happysigh* lol im pretty happy today.. lol nate fell in the bathroom today... soo funny greg cory and i watched him fall on the floor which was wet.... in the bathroom... GROSS... lol and ummmm im listening to American Love by Haste The Day AHHMAZING SONG...
andnndndndndnd im bored and kinda hyper........ sooo umm i love life its pretty kewl right now... and im gunna hangout with my friends whom i havent hung out with in like a year this saturday..... anndnndnd my friend Cory Bowlby is gunna bring me to The Devil Wears Prada, Emery, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, and Chiodos show on november 27th and its in boston and its gunna be for my B-Day soo thats gunna be the best present EVA!!!..... and i think i should hangout with kt and cory bowlby more often...ok so get this.. cory told me he was over kt and he didnt like her anymore cuz he liked sum other girl.. then yesterday i hung out with him and kt and he says to me "I like katie again" and i was like wtf make up ur mind child lol idk lol umm i 've been working on getting over kt but its not working to the fullest.. and it seems to me that she is totally done with me.. so thats good for her and like im just gunna keep trying to get over her even tho its not gunna work unless i find sum1 better than her... which will be IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!! but ya i'll keep working on it... but class is almost done sooo im outty *click*

saturday thoughts

well obviously 2day is saturday.. and im thinking about kt.. again... and like idk wats up... shes like been ignoring me lately cuz i think she likes zane... well actually ik she does... and she like doesnt even talk to me much anymore its all about zane... im supposed to be her best friend and she is like ditching me for my bro... WATEVA... *sigh* lol idk maybe im just dumb... ya i think thats it im just like idk nvm... but ya kt is muh bestfriend and i can never get mad at her cuz i love her... not in the "b/g g/f kinda way but in the i'd do anything for you kinda way... soooo yaaa.... i wish i could just talk to her but shes talking to zane all the time.. but yaa... im done for now. bye.. *click*

everything

frickin everything is going on everywhwere... kt is kt as usual... and she seems like she isnt having a bad day which is really good.. and me im just chillen i cant listen to music cuz my tutorial teacher is queer and YUH.... ummm sooo now i just cant wait to get home and listen to my psp on my radio and jam out in my room... ok soo brittani estes is right next to me and shes pretty kewl i think itd be fun to go to a show with her cuz she just seems like sum1 who would have fun with me there.. cuz im hardcore i love to mosh and go crazy... 2morrow im getting a 2 liter bottle of mountain dew for like $1.75 and when i bought one the first time from mathias it was $1 but nooooo he cranked the price soo now i need more money lol idk why i need mt. dew but sure. and now my side itches... so i have a crush on this girl who shall not be named.. lol but i really like her a lot.. she makes me soo happy but i'll never be able to be with her. shes too good for me.. even tho we have some in depth conversations all the time but yeah.. im sad cuz i love her!! i seriously do LOVE her L.O.V.E
but im outty for now so ill be on later to blog sum more. *click*