Nostalgia 2.0

If you get to the point where you are over certain feelings consciously, and then you end up seeing or reading something that brings everything back, its not the best thing. Especially when the feeling you had was a huge part of your life. I read this thing and it made things better in a way because of what it said, but it also made things like 100 times worse because it brought back the memories and knowing that i was told it was different now. and what i don't understand is how can something like that be felt and then it no longer is felt. When you feel something is right, and you've had that feeling more than once even after hardships it most likely is the real thing. If things seem to be going well then get crappy try and fix it, don't just express that it sucks and leave it at that. Things don't fix just by knowing that it is broken. You need to act on it and make it so that the problem is fixed or at least it is being attempted to be fixed. For some reason nothing is making sense to me right now. Everything is just so screwed up. It was fine yesterday, but now I'm just a mess. I truly hope that one day all my mind will find solace and I will be happy, but for now I am not happy. If you can help me find happiness please contact me.

In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti

Finding happiness is one of the hardest things to do after living a life like mine. but the hardest part is finding true happiness, most of the time you are fooled into fake happiness for reasons like you are lonely and you just want to be loved or you just want something anything to bring you solace. but if you seek with your heart you will find what you are looking for, it may not always come right away but it will eventually, sometimes its not what you thought, but it will make you the happiest you could ever be. keep searching and you will find love and happiness. It's the best thing that could happen to you. I may have not found what I am searching for yet, but i have faith that it will come and I will savor every moment of it. this isn't the longest blog but it has one of the best messages I have written to date.

Change?

Things don't change. People change, and most of the time it's for the better, but there are a few times when people should just stay the same. even though she said, it's funny how things change, nothing changed, except for her state of mind. I still hold true to every thing i have said. I will never cease. When you believe in something and it feels right, never let go. You will know when something feels right, because it makes you do something differently. Even if it take months or years, as long as you stick to it, it should work out in the end. If it doesn't then it was never meant to be, but don't let yourself succumb to these false feelings, discern through them, seek the truth. The darkness will cover your eyes but you will find your way. Faith is what we have, and love is what we can give. Keep your mind clear and do what makes you happy. Even if it doesn't make you happy the whole time, it will give you a better idea as to what will keep you happy, my love for you won't stop, and i will always believe that one day we will be together again. It feels right. It just wasn't our time. But it will come, and i will show you what true happiness is. I will give you what you deserve, I will treat you like the princess you are. and when you cry, I will comfort you and let you know that this is only a bump in your life and you still have the rest of it to look forward to. Don't let anything get you down, the world can be harsh but you will overcome all your obstacles, and find out what you were meant to be. With a person like you, the options are limitless. You are perfect in my eyes, I will let you be if it is needed, but I feel as though that isn't what is meant to come. All those stupid fights we had, and pointless arguments, those are behind us. The future only holds happiness and love. Don't let that fall away from you. You will always be loved. Love me.