In the end.

Where I left off in my last post is where I am now. Over a year later. I am 19 years old, and I have yet to find happiness. The love of my life is with another. I have done a lot of stupid things to make my life much more complicated. I'm stuck here suffering. I don't even have my own room. I have to sleep on the couch in my living room. I think I have lost Katie completely now. She was my closest friend, and the only one who understood me. She knew me better than I know myself. Now she is gone. As long as she is happy I won't suffer completely. 2:47am is the time. Chase Coy is playing from my laptop. I just read through every one of my old blogs. I've changed yet I'm in the same place. I'm in love, yet I'm searching for it. "Be patient while time heals the pain that you're in" that is what the chorus of this chase coy song says. I've been patient for 4 years. I'm still broken. I need to sleep.. I love you, please don't ever forget. I will always be here.